Friends, Beaches, and....

So I've decided, I'm not going to add the part two after all. (:  I decided to keep all the mushy, lovey dovey, shit between me and Jacob (:  I just want to say I am so blessed to have Jacob in my life and HOLY SHIT he's amazing!!! <3 Yes, idiots, i'm in love, so deeply in love with this guy. Can I just say again, Jacob you are amazing! (:




      Anywho, I finally introduced all my friends to eachother on Monday.  It turned out much better then I thought it was going to go.  I mean, each of these girls are pretty damn awesome and not to mention drama free (I'm optimistic, and those are the kind of people I like hanging out with), and I knew they would get along, but wow, what a day it turned out to be after all lol  So first of all, I was trying to think up of a chill spot for all of us to hangout at, it was a nice sunshiny day, so what better place then the beach right?!  (:  

We all live in the same general area too so I'm glad everyone knew what beach/lake I was talking about.  So when I got there, two of the girls were already there and as I got out of the car I could tell they were already getting along great.  So it was the three of us there just walking in the sand and talking about eachothers jobs, interests, and bands that we all agreed were kick ass.  Within the next 15 minutes, the three other girls showed up and again we talked about jobs, who had a boyfriend, complimented eachother on eachothers clothes, and I am so happy we were all wearing shorts! You better believe we were the hottest and craziest group of girls on the beach! From doing cartwheels, picking up shells, and two of my friends even agreed to get buried up to the neck in sand. Me and the other girls ended up making them into mermaids with some huge but really lopsided boobs! haha So after a hour at the beach we decided to go to my friend Kasey's house.  She has her own place so we just hung out there, drank some awesome sun tea, and since we all had nothing to do that night...We randomly decided to go back to our homes, find our hottest dresses, and get ready for a night out in Seattle, and yes, this was a Monday, who does that? lol oh yeaaaaah, us! haha We all met back at Kasey's house 2 hours later where we all tried fitting into one bathroom and help eachother do eachother's hair and makeup, my friend Courtney did mine and I've never seen my eyes stand out so awesomely before aha! 

lol the random dude in the back

     While this is all going on, I can't help the fact that Kasey has a mix CD playing some Pink Floyd, Mudvayne, and Beastie Boys. I knew I'd fall in love with her haha!  So about close to two hours later, we all climb into my friends armada, then we were off to Seattle.  We had no idea where we were going, all we knew was that we were determind to find some place to make a memorable night out of.  And that we did.  We ended up going to a bar, three of us only 20 years old (ill be 21 in 5 1/2 months!), one is 21 and the other two are 22, turns out my friend Kasey knew the bouncer and got us all in (:  We immediately got hit on by so many guys, but 4 of us already happily taken, so the other two didn't seem to mind so much haha.  My friend Courtney ended up inviting 4 of her other friends to come join us and before you know it there was an even bigger group of chicks!  We're so lame we all decided to randomly dance like "a white girl with no rhythm" haha it was ridiculous, we had some other people laughing with us, at least i think they were laughing with us?? lol oh well, we had fun nevertheless aha! xD Sorry mom if you are reading this but if you didn't know i've been to a 21 and over spot before then your late lol love you! haha.  And this is exactly how I knew what to order, here are some of the drinks I've had and that I suggest you all to try! theyre delicious! (some cocktails and some shots):
-Jolly Rancher
-Fucker Upper
-Bj's
-Sex with an alligator (lol)
-Alabama Slammer
-grey goose vodka


the rest I cant remember (:  all I know is this was a much needed night!  And this upcoming weekend should be interesting (:  well its time for me to shower, Its getting oh so very late, and I just put my two week notice in at work (love being a cashier but working at Sears is just not for me) and it would look completely awful if I was late because I slept in from a night of blogging haha but seriously, someone try one of those drinks I ordered, yummy, trust me! Every girl needs a night out with their girls, cheers ladies!
   

Part One: It all began Friday

So, I just want to say, it's me and my hunny's 2 year anniversary today (:  Why am I blogging on our special day? Because I'm in a relationship with a working man (:  Jacob starts work at 5:45 and the rest of the family went out as well so I am home alone for the time being.  So let me begin this blog by starting on Friday.  Well I woke up and cuddled for awhile with Jacob, I cherish this alot because one of us usually wakes up alone during the week because of our different schedules.  So I was just enjoying my day and started getting ready for work, I worked from 5:45-9:30, not too long of a shift.  After work, I met my friend at the mall because she works there too and we live in the same area, by the way her sound system is BOSS haha so she dropped me off at the top of the hill because that is where I was going to meet Jenn.  I randomly grabbed some dandelions and gave them to her and told her I brought her some wishes (:  We walked home, Jacob had just left to work and the parents went out with their friends.  So it was me and Jenn with the house to ourselves....what's there to do??

     We decided to take a walk to Fred Meyer's to pick up something to eat.  I bought myself a Lean Cuisine french bread pizza, and Jenn got some noodles.  We wanted to stay longer and check out the makeup and hair product section but the speakers came on with someone blaring out "Attention shoppers! Fred Meyers will be closing in 5 minutes..." I didn't even realize how late it was!  So we purchased our stuff and left.  I then suggested we go to the ampm because I was thirsty.  An Arizona, Peace Tea, and horchata was on my mind lol  We get to the gas station and spent about 10 minutes there contemplating what we wanted to purchase, with Jenn repeating "We can't buy candy, don't let us by any chocolate Des!" lol were both trying to stay away from the sugary goodness of candy and chocolate so we constantly have to remind ourselves haha After tasting the disgusting liquid they called horchata there (which is usually decent but that night it just tasted like liquid cinnamon, yuck!) I decided to go with a low calorie pomegranate juice and some sour apple rings for Jacob when he gets home.  Jenn got two beef jerky sticks and a diet coke.  We left the store and soon regretted buying those ice cold drinks as our hands starting freezing from holding the cups, but ampm's ice is the best so we could not resist lol Moments later, we saw a drunk guy walking down the street, me and Jenn were laughing as we past him.  We then decided to go back the opposite direction, so now the drunk guy was in front of us.  So here it is 4/20 and there's cops all around but none seem to be too interested in this man carrying a flask and stumbling around.  This made me think of nights in Fresno actually lol
     After passing this guy again, I asked Jenn if she wanted to go eat at Denny's.  She seemed to think I was kidding at first, after all, we did go to Fred Meyers to go get dinner for ourselves anyways lol But the night was young and I didn't want to go home yet.  So we went to Denny's, requesting that we sit at the counter/bar section since Jenn never had before.  We both ordered the everyday value slam, but I chose the sausage and she chose the bacon and added chocolate chips in her pancakes for 50 cents (so much for no chocolate right? haha ehh were girls! lol) so we had a good time talking and stuffing our faces with pancakes, we both finished half our pancakes when we both decided we could not eat another bite. We paid for our meal and finally headed home.  When we got through the doors of our home sweet home, it was around 12:40.  The rest of the night we watched kids movies while I did Jenn's eyebrows, I am so awesome and doing everyones eyebrows but I am so lazy to do my own lol Typical. Ha! After the movies, we both started yawning and could barely keep our eyes open any longer.  I said good night to my best friend and went downstairs to me and Jacob's bed.  I stripped off my clothes, put on some Fresno State shorts, crawled into bed and texted my boyfriend good night and told him I loved him. (:  He woke me up at 4am to tell me he just got home, he kissed me goodnight and we fell asleep. (:

     Well, like the title says, this is part one of 2, I was going to try and type out the rest of the weekend but Tori is coming over and I gotta clean up a bit.  Our laundry is all over the pool table right now and our bed is still yet to be made haha well I'll update either later tonight or in the next 2 days (:  Have a good one everyone! xoxoxoxo 

How I'm losing the weight...

So everyone has been asking me lately how I've been losing all this weight.  Well I decided to make this whole blog about how i've done it.  First things first, I had to mentally prepare myself for a drastic change.  I'm not gunna lie, I've tried dieting in the past and it just didn't work because I wasn't mentally ready for it.  This time was different.  I want my old figure back, but better.  Softball and choregraphed dancing came easy to me.  Now after highschool, is when all the weight gain kicked in.  I ate horribly, some days I rarely ate at all.  I HATED to exercise.  But when January of this year came, I received the most amazing thing ever, a gym card. (:  Since I didn't purchase it with my own money, I knew I had to put it to good use.  

So for the first week, I just started doing any kind of exercise equipment at the gym until I found a machine that I like.  The ellptical is now my best friend! I also downloaded this app to my phone called myfitnesspal.  It's awesome and to be honest I don't think I would've stayed on track if it was not for this app lol To start out the app you just put in your weight and how much weight you want to lose a week.  Mine is set to one and a half pounds per week.  Right now I can eat up to 1380 calories a day and exercise at least 45 minutes a day.  This picture that you see to the left here, is my workout wall.  Sometime when I get bored, or on the weekends (since I only go to the gym Mon-Fri) I do a few of these, even if it's just for 5 minutes, it still beats sitting 5 minutes on your ass lol So lets go over this...
-1380 calories a day, it goes down every 5lbs I lose
-I workout 5x a week, Monday through Friday
-I use the ellpitcal for at least 30 minutes, up to 80 minutes, I know that's alot but my endurance has gotten extremely high! lol
-I also swim when I have the time to, usually just treading water, water aerobics, or swim a few laps
-I have now started 15 minute jogging routine that I do twice a week, I also started light weight lifting and a variety of sit up routines, but I've only been doing 50 situps but with a medicine ball (6lbs)
-drink plenty of water, crystal light is something I also have with me at all times


It may seem like a lot, and trust me, back in January I had no intention on spending an hour on an ellpitical but now I feel so liberated.  If I don't go to the gym I feel like a total wreck haha And it's okay to have your bad days.  This past weekend me and my friend went out and I had greasy food, came home later and I had some mint chocolate chip ice cream.  One day out of the 3 months I've been doing this isn't going to make me gain all the weight back.  BUT if I were to go back on that track, then I should be worried haha I made up for my bad eating day at the gym the next day, which required me to do extra sit ups and with the 8lb ball, and 10 extra mins on the ellptical haha  Well it is now April 17, 2012 and I am 32 pounds lighter (:

      

My sunshiny weekend

So I was ecstatic to find out I had this Friday and Saturday off from work. This called for some fun (: Friday night I went to my friend Jens and picked up my necklace that I left at her house the other week. I had gotten myself into an altercation where her cousin wanted to fight me (haha) so as I waited outside with all this adrenaline running through me she took one look at me and decided she didn't wanna fight after all. Smart girl, she would've gotten whooped. Now I dont like to fight but this girl had said "dont give her that necklace, it's her fault she left it, its not hers anymore!" So I had to say something (: my friend apologized to me over and over and told me how much she hated her cousin and once I left I heard my friend say to her cousin "YOU AND YOUR BOYFRIEND GET THE F*CK OUTTA MY DAMN HOUSE!!" And let me just ad my friend is this cute little thing and that's the first time I've heard her cuss. Anyways...
So came back home and drank a few beers with my boyfriends sister and our new friend Alex. He's a lifeguard that we met at the gym. He's okay. So far.
This morning I woke up next to my hunny and we cuddled for awhile. I never get to stay in bed and cuddle anymore since I work so early nowadays so I enjoyed every moment of it. Then I finally started getting ready for the beach (: My friend Tori and I planned to wear shorts, sandals, and cute flowy tank tops and look as Cali grown as possible haha. She picked me up and we went to the strip where tons of people were. So crowded it took us forever to find parking lol not to mention all the guys that were showing off their cars and motorcycles. There was drunk people left and right and one girl looked like Snooki haha
We ended up going to a fish and chips place and the fries were so good! Mmm I haven't had fries in forever! We got to pet the cutest pitbull too! We talked about our upcoming road trip, penises, future concerts, and we also found out we both have a crush on Dane Cook lol
  After our delicious little meal, we went walking on the beach, ahhh the warm sand felt amazing. We were goofing off for awhile then decided to sit down on a ledge with our feet dangling above the sand. We were having a great conversation until.....random guy "Ow owwww"
Me "dude u okay? What happened?"
Guy "your just so beautiful I lost my balance from looking at u and fell"
I turned around rolling my eyes, then he comes to sit by me while his friend comes to sit by Tori. I dont want to go into details here but my God! Why do guys have to be so persistent in getting a chicks number? We told them both we were in a relationship, and the guy by Tori was respectful and backed off, but the dude trying to get me to be his "friend" would not stop! I told him I was 17, I have a boyfriend, I was such a asshole to this guy but he continued to try to persuade me to give him my number. Anyways, just as I was about to slap him and scream to make sure there were witnesses just in case he tried something, he got up and left and said we could find him around if we changed our minds. We got up and walked away and came up with a codeword, which is Peacock (lol) so anytime were in another situation like that, we say the codeword and we just walk away or slap the guy, depending on the situation haha
Guys, not all chicks wanna be hit on. For instance, me and Tori just wanted to tan and talk. No men were needed. And if I ever see u again Mr. Lets-just-all-get-along I will throw whatever is within reach, at ur fucking testicles (: 
Last but not least, I got a haircut by my friend Birda, she's effing awesome and If I never would've worked at Sears and met Nikki, I would've still been living with those horrible split ends haha well nighty night! Cuddle time with my baby boo ((:

Work hard, party harder

Well, it seems as if I'm bumping into an old friend everytime I come on this. I am so bad at blogging now, I always forget haha. But anyways, so I am now working at Sears as a cashier, pretty much everyday. I've met some cool new friends and that's what I was hoping for when I finally got a job. I always look forward to seeing them when I arrive. I dont know how many customers I greet and help each day but the days seem to go by pretty fast. So fast that I feel like I dont have anytime to have fun anymore. So I had to change that this weekend.
First of all, my two brothers were suppose to come visit me but due to spring break the planes have been packed, so we all have to wait until this coming weekend. Which is fine because Ill get to see them longer now. So during the week, I was texting my friend, Tori, and we weve been texting for about two weeks and we finally decided to go out on Friday. She came to my house and picked me up, she rang the doorbell and as soon as I opened the door she greeted me with a huge hug! It was cute haha then we got into her car and drove to the restaurant we planned on going to. It took us about 25 mins to get there and we were talking nonstop. I love this girl! While at the restaurant we talked about road trips, rock bands, our boyfriends, crazy shit we've done. No dull moments! Then we headed back to my house and she goes "I got some beer in my trunk" with a huge smile on both of our faces, we knew this would be the beginning of a fun night. She came in and I introduced her to the family and my boyfriend. The whole night involved playing pool, rock music, YouTube searching, an empty case of beer, and new friends. Making sure she was sober enough to drive, she was finally sober enough to leave at 2:30 a.m. We walked her to the door, gave us our goodbye hugs and went back inside. Me and jacob still a little buzzed got into bed and crashed the fuck out. Haha It felt so good to have some good company and take a break. Next weekend should be awesome! Until then I'm working Monday-Friday! (:

Working Hard Pays Off

So lately I've been so distant from everyone. Trying to recollect my thoughts and whatnot. I've been frantically looking for a job, since the one I thought I had kind of ripped me off. So, I got a call on Wednesday for an interview at 2:30 the next day. Thursday morning I was going through so many clothes trying to find what to wear. I finally got my outfit together. I arrived at the mall and in no time I was being interviewed!! I was nervous, and I stumbled over a few of my words. Then he said to come back in a hour, that's when I had my second interview. I had to pretend to sell a pen to the lady haha it was interesting. She then told me to come back today at 12 because she thinks I'd be perfect for the job and she wanted me to meet the store manager. Well I met her today and as soon as this drug test is over,  this girl will be employed at SEARS (:

My most played song

Watch "Neon Hitch - Fuck U Betta [Uncensored] [Official Music Video]" on YouTube

If you haven't heard of her or any of her music, your life must suck (: haha this is my main workout song <3

4:31 a.m.

Yes, I know I've been lagging. I even started a YouTube channel and I haven't even updated that in a week. Lets see, me and Jacob have the house to ourselves, everyone else went to Cali for a family emergency. Its been nice with it just being me and my hunny. He's been spoiling me and I'm not going to complain. (: We've also been going to the gym and we cuddle non stop (: tomorrow he's going to BBQ for me and hopefully, this weather clears up so we can go to Seattle.

So I have an appointment next week to get a tattoo, ill post it once I get it, IF I get it, just depends if I work Monday. I know this blog is like wtf, but its hella early and im just writing whatever my mind is allowing me to process right now haha oh ya, I got invited to a party in a few weeks and I'm stoked!!! Haven't been to a party in a minute, I wonder how WA does it here, this Cali girl might have to show em a thing or two aha (; I'm also going to my first jewelry party, I probably wont buy anything but my friend said there will be more girls our age and I hope these chicks are cool, because in cool (: aha but seriously, where are the rocker chicks at? I'm dying to go to a show and head bang and mosh hehe

Why does Sabz have to live so far, this would probably be one of those mornings I'd walk over and leave a really random note on her car, just because. Haha I remember doing that to Taylor all the time lol all those notes ranged from random, funny stuff I did, song lyrics, or what our friendship meant to me. I miss Taylor. I miss her shortness. I miss her craziness. I miss dancing in streets and jumping on the back of ice cream trucks with her. I hope she's doing good. I hope my family and friends are all good.

Well as you can tell, my writing is as horrible as a rich stuck up snob stealing from a bum right now so ill let ya guys go, imma watch TV and eat breakfast with Jacob (:

There's faith in love

Having one of those nights with him <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CjUWeRtObhY&hd=1

Jacob, I love you <3

So, this week, the founder of my drag racing team suggested we plan a car show in August.  We had our meeting yesterday to discuss some of the details and O M G im excited!! Sabrina came up with some cool ideas for contests and I can't wait for august to be here already haha by then I should have my own car, i mean come on now, im in a car club but i have no car...how stupid does that sounda haha..


I am in charge of putting up ads and recruiting bitches to our team haha  It sucks cuz i know alot of girls in Fresno that would be down to join but I doubt theyre gunna make the drive all the way over here haha  It's cool because I look so forward to our meetings and everyone is really cool.  Oh and btw we are getting our official shirts and car stickers this week!!!  I already paid for mine yesterday and i'm getting my nickname on the back...my nickname is "CraKk"  btw haha im kinda crazy so i think it fits me perfectly lol


well if your reading this and your interested in joining our team or wanna sponsor us, or just want to look at our beautiful web page...click the link below!


http://madchenmotoren-com.webs.com/

Heres 3 of our members!  from left to right there is...
Ivy (Knockout aka our founder), Sabrina (Bedazzler), Amanda (Ballbuster) and thats Ivy's sick whip (;

A little bit of everything

Currently, besides this, I am looking for jobs and watching The Devil Inside with Jacob.  (and he's massaging my feet awww)  I had a nanny interview last Friday and I babysitted this little boy named Calvin, he turns 1 in May.  I was suppose to get a call from his mom letting me know if I got the job or not yesterday.  She called me and asked me to babysit again on Thurs. and Fri. and she's having another girl watch him earlier on this week.  I'm nervous cuz right now it's between me and her and I would really love to be a nanny for them.  So I'm keeping my fingers crossed on that.

12 pounds gone!

     Lets see, on Saturday Jacobs mom had some friends over for a few games and some drinks.  And my baby BBQed and it was soooooooooooo good!  I also found out on Saturday that since New Years I've lost a total of 12 pounds ((: yay!  I'm also getting alot more compliments and my second fam is really noticing a difference (:  I'm excited to see if my brothers will notice when they come visit me in April ((: by then I hope to be at least 25 pounds down!

     I've been kinda bummed this week though because I haven't been able to go to the gym because right now my priority is looking for a job.  I was suppose to go today but its closed ):  but hopefully it will be open tomorrow!  Oh ya, I also went bowling with Jenn, Jacob, and Chris on Friday and I kicked their asses haha the last time I went bowling was in December and my mom beat me, Jacob, and all of my brothers haha so I think some of her skills rubbed off on me hehe (: well thats all for now! time to get back to job searchin!

     

     

Valentine's Day is.....

FINALLY OVER!!!


So, I'm not a huge fan of Valentine's Day, just because I think it's stupid how it's suppose to be about couples loving eachother and giving eachother gifts.  First of all, couples should be able to show their love everyday, anyone can give someone chocolate, but how does that mean that they love you?  In my eyes, giving your significant other gifts is an easy way out without much effort, relationships take effort, they take time and work.  Second of all, STOP complaining about not having a valentine!!!! Maybe instead you should focus on your loved ones like your mom, your siblings, your friends??? Don't be so naive.






      Now, today my boyfriend took me out to a surprise dinner to eat a cute heart shaped pizza, and we actually spent time together and we TALKED and we LAUGHED and we couldn't stop looking at eachother.  Honestly, all the riches in the world amounts to nothing when I spend time with my boyfriend.  To all those girls that get so upset that their boyfriends didnt get you any flowers? Think about this, would you rather have a bouquet of beautiful flowers that are going to last less than two weeks? Or would you rather have your boyfriend, that makes mistakes, that farts, that burps, that may get on your nerves, but in the end, is ALWAYS there to support you, always tucks you in at night, always kisses your forehead, always makes you laugh when your upset, that will always love you?  The choice is yours.  And frankly, I choose my best friend, who so happens to be my boyfriend <3 That is all. (:

A quick update...

So I had a pretty good weekend, havent had one like this in awhile.  This is going to be a short post so im going to sum it up, Friday went out to the club with Sabrina, Jacob, Jenn, and Chris and danced in a cage for the first time haha, yesterday stayed home and played some pool and took some shots, and today is just a lazy sunday and i shit you not, ive been in bed most of the day, mainly because I have a piece of glass stuck in my foot and it has yet to come out ): grrr


     Anyways, I havent been to the gym since thursday, so tomorrow and the rest of this week is going to kick my ass, i ate pizza, chips, alcohol, and I think Ive had more peanut butter then i should have lol I'm already dreading tomorrow, im going to sweat my ass off and Tuesday ill be waking up as sore as ever!

Jenn, Sabrina, and me (:

btw, i just noticed I havent wrote a post in a lil over a week, oops, ill try not to go more then 3 days without writing one...well i hope you all enjoy watching the Grammys or whatever it is u guys do...all i know is my hunny is cooking me dinner ((: and once were done eating were gunna play a few rounds of pool.....oh ya, on that note, Jacob taught me how to play pool, and now I always kick his ass at it haha ((:

Homesick

The worst part about moving here is that my family and friends are so far away.  I can't even count all the times that i've wished that my family were just down the street instead of 18 hours away.  No one quite understands me like they do.  I am supported and I love my boyfriend's family, but I miss MY family.  Today has just been an awful day and i just wish my mom was here, she would know exactly what to say to make me feel better.  I miss my dad shouting out random lines from our favorite movies.  I miss Anthony and his stupid faces he would make that made me laugh so hard.  i miss james (and Zaina, our cat haha), can't believe both my brothers are graduating already.  I miss Seth and his huge ass ears lol I miss my little bros hugs.  

My Fam[ily] <3

     I miss Leelee.  She is one bad bitch haha I've only known her for 3 years now and I feel like I've known her my whole life.  She always knows how to cheer me up, she gets me to stop being so stubborn, and omg i miss when we would go out to the club and not have a care in the world.  Now she moved to San Diego and I'm way up North.  To be honest though, I could've been a better friend to her, see my ex best friend (Crystal), we just started growing up and grew our seperate ways, but I've never gotten any closure from our friendship, we don't talk at all anymore.  I tried to get ahold of her, but she never got back to me, I tried doing the adult thing but you know, I can only do so much and she wasn't willing to talk it out.  My whole family loved her and I was scared to bring in another friend to hang out with my family like Crystal used to do.  I didn't wanna end up disappointed again, and I'm sorry for being like that towards you Leelee, but I fuckin miss you hoe. :P  I've learned to let go of the way I was, and you are my best friend.

Leelee all the way to the left, my friend Tina, and Tina's mom

     Overall, I miss home.  I hate that I have to wait until April to see my brothers, but I'm going to try and see you guys next month.  Love you guys! xoxoxoxo

Drunk phone calls...

Aren't they the best? lol 

Be responsible, seriously....

Honestly, your really starting to irritate me.  You talk shit behind everyones back, your a horrible friend, and your not being responsible.  Do you have any goals?  Do you ever plan on moving into your own place?  Because I do.  I don't care if you don't like me cuz your not the one that's important to me.  Be responsible dude, seriously.  If you have a problem with me, then come say it to my face.  And stop telling me to do with MY life okay, I know what's best for me.  You put on this act like your such a good guy, but your really a fake and it's so easy for you to manipulate everyone's image of you.  Grow up, make the right decisions, and there won't be a problem.  I'm not the only one that thinks you need to start taking more responsibility, so just do it and be a big boy ok? Thanks.


And the only reason why I'm not telling you this to your face, is because this is not my house, not my rules, and I don't wanna start problems.  Just do what your suppose to do.

Just got off the phone with my mom & dad

 I just got off the phone with my mom and dad and omg it felt so good to talk to them both.  I called my moms phone and my dad picked up cuz my mom was busy, and it felt good to hear my dad say he was proud of me. My mom read my first blog to him and I didn't even know so it kinda caught me off guard, but at least my dad knows how i feel.  Sometimes i feel like me and my dad are closer, but its funny because were 18 hours away. Sometimes it was hard getting along with my dad, but I think we've both learned to let go of that negativity, and now that i'm older, it feels good to feel this close to my dad again.  I can't wait to hug my "dear old dad" haha I can hear his loud voice in my head.  I'm proud of my dad, I know life is tough and i know my dad and mom struggle, but I'm proud of him.  i know its difficult for him to show his heart sometimes, but i know he has one, and i know he loves me, my brothers, and my mom.  That's me and my dad in the pic above (:


     After I talked to my dad, my mom came on the phone, and damn our voices sound alike lol I told her how my job interview went and asked her when she was going to be sending my brothers up to visit me.  I miss my mom soooo much, I miss her hugs, and the way she always smells like Victoria's Secret body sprays haha  I miss making fun of her cheerleader personality too haha not saying she's dumb, cuz my mom is smart as hell, shes just really bubbly and she just has that personality that's so inviting and you can't help but love her.  Everyone at my old job had nothing but great things to say about my her.  I hope to be at least half of a great mother she is one day. And thats my mom on the side, i made her pose lol


     Now I'm sitting in my room on the bed, and this time I'm wearing pants (OMG! CRAZY! lol) I gotta wake up early tomorrow cuz me and Jenn are going to the gym for a morning workout....and swimming, lets hope I don't drown for being so tired haha  Oh ya! Please cross your fingers for me and keep me in your prayers, the lady that i'd be babysitting for is going to call me on Saturday and let me know if i got the job or not. Thanks everyone!!


               Song that's been in my head all day: Freak on a Leash-Korn






Food I'm currently craving: Oreos and Milk!!!

Getting back on my feet

Okay, so today I have an interview with this lady just down the street from me.  She has 2 little girls and I really hope they like me because a job just down the street working with two cute girls would be ideal.  Oh, plus the pay would be good too. :P  If I get this job, I'm saving up for my car.  I'm in a car club now and it's kinda hard to be in one if you don't have a car haha With the job I have right now, it's only once a week and it's not enough to help me save, don't get me wrong the kids are freaking hilarious and fun to watch but I need to get back on my feet again.
     I live with my boyfriend, his friend, and my boyfriends family.  I miss having my own place.  I miss decorating the house the way I want, I miss walking around naked, I hate being quiet (if u know what i mean lol), I miss having the food that I like in the fridge (I barely bought any junk food, most of the junk was for Jacob haha all the junk here is tempting me and I have no will power lol).  I miss blasting my music, i miss cooking for my man.  I know I can cook here, but it would be nice to just cook a meal and just spend the evening with my boyfriend.  I even miss the cleaning products that I've always been familar with haha.  I love my boyfriends family, but I'm looking forward to getting my own place again. 
    
 So here are some of my goals:
-Save up for a car
-buy a car
-open up a new bank account
-build up my savings to afford a new place 
(where Jacob and I wanna move to, I have no idea yet)
-Move into my own place (with Jacob of course)
-build up my will power so I don't give in to all these sweets all the time lol
-Go back to school, I really want to go to a beauty school
-Continually make my man happy (: <3
-Lose 5 pounds a month by my 21st birthday (Nov. 6 this year)
-Get drunk on my 21st birthday haha, but I DO want to remember it haha
-Make some awesome new friends....Sabrina is already one of them (:


and thats all for now (: it's 2 in the afternoon and I need to take a shower now lol wish me good luck on my interview today!!!

Today at the gym...

So today I went to the gym with Jacob and Chris (Jenn didn't wana go cuz I wasn't going swimming today).  As soon as i got there I put my backpack in the locker and went to the weight room and jumped on the treadmill.  There was a cute little old man next to me on another treadmill, I soon realized his wife was there too, but on one of the bicycles in front of us.  She would look back at him and smile and he would smile back.  10 minutes into my jog, they both get up to leave and he takes her hand and kisses it. Cutest thing ever! (: It kinda made my heart melt to see that (: 
    So I'm still jogging (and sweating ewwww) and listening to my man Drake <3 haha and I start thinking, how small are my boobs gunna get once I lose all this weight?  How awesome is my ass gunna look?  Fuck I want a burger. No Desiree, thats one of the reasons your working out in the first place.  I wish I was still in dance classes.  I can't wait to take that belly dancing class with jenn?  I miss Jenn!  I wonder what Jacob and Chris are doing, theyre probably going down the water slides looking like dorks haha Jacob's arms are getting so muscular lately (MmMmMm sexy) Then some lady comes in front of me and I take my earphones out and I say "yes?" and she asks me where i got my shoes from and i told her "my boyfriend bought them for me at Big 5" and she said "Boyfriend? Don't waste your time on boys, they just hurt you and ruin your life" I replied with "Luckily I'm dating a man, he betters my life" (: She smiled and said "Your a smart girl hunny, are there any men your age that would be interested in dating a 53 year old?" she laughed, patted my shoulder, and walked away...hahaha that was a wierd topic to talk about at the gym lol but the next time I go to the gym, I am so going to look for her, and be a creep and take a picture of her so if anyones interested, watch out for my future blogs haha the picture below is not her though....thought it was funny lol

      I also tried hooking up my boyfriends friend up with one of the lifeguards there.  Chris is a people person, and I thought it was so funny how shy he got over this girl lol No swagg Chris! No Swagg! haha kidding....Well he gave her his number and if she's not too desperate, she wont text tonight.  But if she doesn't text at all, sorry Chris, guess she doesn't like chocolate hahahaha jk 
     Anyways, I'm now sitting in our CHILL room with Chris and Jacob, i'm eating pineapple chunks (yum), and Jacob is flashing his light at me like its some type of strobe light, Chris is lying on the pool table talking nonsense and I'm going to steal wheat thins from him now....so later home slices ahahaha :P


Favorite song I worked out to today: Chop Suey-System Of a Down <3

A Mixture of Nervousness and Excitement

So like the title of my post says, I'm nervous and excited at the same time.  I just invited people to come and read my blog.  Some I know, and I actually took  one more step then i would've and invited others that I hardly talk to anymore. Maybe this could reconnect some friendships I have lost, or maybe some of them might just delete me off facebook and think that I'm stupid.  Fact is, I wanna just be ME.  If that means that i only have 20 friends on facebook, so be it, at least I know who understands me, or who is actually willing to try.  
    To all of you that are giving this a chance, THANK YOU! I also hope that some of you start your own blog as well.  
    Sorry if what I write seems really boring to you all but i'm doing this just to please myself right now, it feels really good to write out what's going through my head, it's wierd though, because it's like i'm writing in a journal, but everyone has access to it, shit, this better not be one of my bad ideas haha well Desiree, lets see what happens.....

To get this going...

So, I've been wanting to start a blog for awhile now.  But it took my new friend Sabrina to join this one.  I was i.m.'ing her earlier and we were talking about her  ex and what a asshole he is and she mentioned she had a blog.  I read it and I think it helped her deal with the situation, even though she is just writing her feelings out i think it made her feel better to write about it.  So here I am, listening to a mixture of Korn and Drake.  I'm wearing my brothers band tee and my favorite booty shorts haha It's coldin our room but my gosh I love being in my undies.  
     <3 So I miss my family, like a whooooole lot.  Me and my brothers are so close and it sucks being so far away from them.  Sometimes I feel bad for leaving, but this just felt like the right thing to do for MYSELF.  James, my middle brother, was the one that made me cry the most when I left, we talk about everything and anything.  I miss him coming home from school and coming into my room to talk to me about his day.  I miss going over to our friend Stephanie's house and just chilling.  Damn, i miss Fresno.  Ya, I know, how could anyone miss Fresno? But i do, I miss walking late at night, seeing people u know along the way, knowing where everything is.  It's so COLD here, and ya i know, i should go put some pants on but FUCK YOU, i like being in my underwear okay? (: 
     I can't wait to visit my crazy family, soon, ill see ya guys soon.  As for my boyfriend, Jacob.  He's simply the best.  Sometimes i catch myself looking at him, thinking, "Jacob, how the hell did you make me fall for you?" Holy crap, I'm living with this guy.  Wasn't it just yesterday i was sneaking out of my room just to see an old boyfriend of mine.  Now I'm here, sharing a room, a bed, and my heart with this guy.  And my dad is okay with this? LOL what was that man thinking letting his daughter move to a different state with a boy? i know dad, you like him dont you? you know he loves me and will protect me right? and you know how much i love jacob.  I know you and mom trust my judgement on Jacob too, you two know I'm smart and ya i make mistakes, but Jacob isn't one of them, and you guys both know that too.  As much as it scares the living shit out of me, the day that i marry jacob, its going to mean more than anything in this world to me, that your going to be there to walk me down the aisle to him.  i love you dad. As much as we fight and bump heads, I love you.
   Well that's all for now, I'm really hoping to keep up with this.  But I smell dinner and I'm pretty sure i'm going to hear Jacob call me upstairs pretty soon to eat. Ummmm i dont know how to end this so ill just type in some happy faces.......


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