Homesick

The worst part about moving here is that my family and friends are so far away.  I can't even count all the times that i've wished that my family were just down the street instead of 18 hours away.  No one quite understands me like they do.  I am supported and I love my boyfriend's family, but I miss MY family.  Today has just been an awful day and i just wish my mom was here, she would know exactly what to say to make me feel better.  I miss my dad shouting out random lines from our favorite movies.  I miss Anthony and his stupid faces he would make that made me laugh so hard.  i miss james (and Zaina, our cat haha), can't believe both my brothers are graduating already.  I miss Seth and his huge ass ears lol I miss my little bros hugs.  

My Fam[ily] <3

     I miss Leelee.  She is one bad bitch haha I've only known her for 3 years now and I feel like I've known her my whole life.  She always knows how to cheer me up, she gets me to stop being so stubborn, and omg i miss when we would go out to the club and not have a care in the world.  Now she moved to San Diego and I'm way up North.  To be honest though, I could've been a better friend to her, see my ex best friend (Crystal), we just started growing up and grew our seperate ways, but I've never gotten any closure from our friendship, we don't talk at all anymore.  I tried to get ahold of her, but she never got back to me, I tried doing the adult thing but you know, I can only do so much and she wasn't willing to talk it out.  My whole family loved her and I was scared to bring in another friend to hang out with my family like Crystal used to do.  I didn't wanna end up disappointed again, and I'm sorry for being like that towards you Leelee, but I fuckin miss you hoe. :P  I've learned to let go of the way I was, and you are my best friend.

Leelee all the way to the left, my friend Tina, and Tina's mom

     Overall, I miss home.  I hate that I have to wait until April to see my brothers, but I'm going to try and see you guys next month.  Love you guys! xoxoxoxo