4:31 a.m.

Yes, I know I've been lagging. I even started a YouTube channel and I haven't even updated that in a week. Lets see, me and Jacob have the house to ourselves, everyone else went to Cali for a family emergency. Its been nice with it just being me and my hunny. He's been spoiling me and I'm not going to complain. (: We've also been going to the gym and we cuddle non stop (: tomorrow he's going to BBQ for me and hopefully, this weather clears up so we can go to Seattle.

So I have an appointment next week to get a tattoo, ill post it once I get it, IF I get it, just depends if I work Monday. I know this blog is like wtf, but its hella early and im just writing whatever my mind is allowing me to process right now haha oh ya, I got invited to a party in a few weeks and I'm stoked!!! Haven't been to a party in a minute, I wonder how WA does it here, this Cali girl might have to show em a thing or two aha (; I'm also going to my first jewelry party, I probably wont buy anything but my friend said there will be more girls our age and I hope these chicks are cool, because in cool (: aha but seriously, where are the rocker chicks at? I'm dying to go to a show and head bang and mosh hehe

Why does Sabz have to live so far, this would probably be one of those mornings I'd walk over and leave a really random note on her car, just because. Haha I remember doing that to Taylor all the time lol all those notes ranged from random, funny stuff I did, song lyrics, or what our friendship meant to me. I miss Taylor. I miss her shortness. I miss her craziness. I miss dancing in streets and jumping on the back of ice cream trucks with her. I hope she's doing good. I hope my family and friends are all good.

Well as you can tell, my writing is as horrible as a rich stuck up snob stealing from a bum right now so ill let ya guys go, imma watch TV and eat breakfast with Jacob (:

There's faith in love

Having one of those nights with him <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CjUWeRtObhY&hd=1

Jacob, I love you <3

So, this week, the founder of my drag racing team suggested we plan a car show in August.  We had our meeting yesterday to discuss some of the details and O M G im excited!! Sabrina came up with some cool ideas for contests and I can't wait for august to be here already haha by then I should have my own car, i mean come on now, im in a car club but i have no car...how stupid does that sounda haha..


I am in charge of putting up ads and recruiting bitches to our team haha  It sucks cuz i know alot of girls in Fresno that would be down to join but I doubt theyre gunna make the drive all the way over here haha  It's cool because I look so forward to our meetings and everyone is really cool.  Oh and btw we are getting our official shirts and car stickers this week!!!  I already paid for mine yesterday and i'm getting my nickname on the back...my nickname is "CraKk"  btw haha im kinda crazy so i think it fits me perfectly lol


well if your reading this and your interested in joining our team or wanna sponsor us, or just want to look at our beautiful web page...click the link below!


http://madchenmotoren-com.webs.com/

Heres 3 of our members!  from left to right there is...
Ivy (Knockout aka our founder), Sabrina (Bedazzler), Amanda (Ballbuster) and thats Ivy's sick whip (;

A little bit of everything

Currently, besides this, I am looking for jobs and watching The Devil Inside with Jacob.  (and he's massaging my feet awww)  I had a nanny interview last Friday and I babysitted this little boy named Calvin, he turns 1 in May.  I was suppose to get a call from his mom letting me know if I got the job or not yesterday.  She called me and asked me to babysit again on Thurs. and Fri. and she's having another girl watch him earlier on this week.  I'm nervous cuz right now it's between me and her and I would really love to be a nanny for them.  So I'm keeping my fingers crossed on that.

12 pounds gone!

     Lets see, on Saturday Jacobs mom had some friends over for a few games and some drinks.  And my baby BBQed and it was soooooooooooo good!  I also found out on Saturday that since New Years I've lost a total of 12 pounds ((: yay!  I'm also getting alot more compliments and my second fam is really noticing a difference (:  I'm excited to see if my brothers will notice when they come visit me in April ((: by then I hope to be at least 25 pounds down!

     I've been kinda bummed this week though because I haven't been able to go to the gym because right now my priority is looking for a job.  I was suppose to go today but its closed ):  but hopefully it will be open tomorrow!  Oh ya, I also went bowling with Jenn, Jacob, and Chris on Friday and I kicked their asses haha the last time I went bowling was in December and my mom beat me, Jacob, and all of my brothers haha so I think some of her skills rubbed off on me hehe (: well thats all for now! time to get back to job searchin!

     

     

Valentine's Day is.....

FINALLY OVER!!!


So, I'm not a huge fan of Valentine's Day, just because I think it's stupid how it's suppose to be about couples loving eachother and giving eachother gifts.  First of all, couples should be able to show their love everyday, anyone can give someone chocolate, but how does that mean that they love you?  In my eyes, giving your significant other gifts is an easy way out without much effort, relationships take effort, they take time and work.  Second of all, STOP complaining about not having a valentine!!!! Maybe instead you should focus on your loved ones like your mom, your siblings, your friends??? Don't be so naive.






      Now, today my boyfriend took me out to a surprise dinner to eat a cute heart shaped pizza, and we actually spent time together and we TALKED and we LAUGHED and we couldn't stop looking at eachother.  Honestly, all the riches in the world amounts to nothing when I spend time with my boyfriend.  To all those girls that get so upset that their boyfriends didnt get you any flowers? Think about this, would you rather have a bouquet of beautiful flowers that are going to last less than two weeks? Or would you rather have your boyfriend, that makes mistakes, that farts, that burps, that may get on your nerves, but in the end, is ALWAYS there to support you, always tucks you in at night, always kisses your forehead, always makes you laugh when your upset, that will always love you?  The choice is yours.  And frankly, I choose my best friend, who so happens to be my boyfriend <3 That is all. (:

A quick update...

So I had a pretty good weekend, havent had one like this in awhile.  This is going to be a short post so im going to sum it up, Friday went out to the club with Sabrina, Jacob, Jenn, and Chris and danced in a cage for the first time haha, yesterday stayed home and played some pool and took some shots, and today is just a lazy sunday and i shit you not, ive been in bed most of the day, mainly because I have a piece of glass stuck in my foot and it has yet to come out ): grrr


     Anyways, I havent been to the gym since thursday, so tomorrow and the rest of this week is going to kick my ass, i ate pizza, chips, alcohol, and I think Ive had more peanut butter then i should have lol I'm already dreading tomorrow, im going to sweat my ass off and Tuesday ill be waking up as sore as ever!

Jenn, Sabrina, and me (:

btw, i just noticed I havent wrote a post in a lil over a week, oops, ill try not to go more then 3 days without writing one...well i hope you all enjoy watching the Grammys or whatever it is u guys do...all i know is my hunny is cooking me dinner ((: and once were done eating were gunna play a few rounds of pool.....oh ya, on that note, Jacob taught me how to play pool, and now I always kick his ass at it haha ((:

Homesick

The worst part about moving here is that my family and friends are so far away.  I can't even count all the times that i've wished that my family were just down the street instead of 18 hours away.  No one quite understands me like they do.  I am supported and I love my boyfriend's family, but I miss MY family.  Today has just been an awful day and i just wish my mom was here, she would know exactly what to say to make me feel better.  I miss my dad shouting out random lines from our favorite movies.  I miss Anthony and his stupid faces he would make that made me laugh so hard.  i miss james (and Zaina, our cat haha), can't believe both my brothers are graduating already.  I miss Seth and his huge ass ears lol I miss my little bros hugs.  

My Fam[ily] <3

     I miss Leelee.  She is one bad bitch haha I've only known her for 3 years now and I feel like I've known her my whole life.  She always knows how to cheer me up, she gets me to stop being so stubborn, and omg i miss when we would go out to the club and not have a care in the world.  Now she moved to San Diego and I'm way up North.  To be honest though, I could've been a better friend to her, see my ex best friend (Crystal), we just started growing up and grew our seperate ways, but I've never gotten any closure from our friendship, we don't talk at all anymore.  I tried to get ahold of her, but she never got back to me, I tried doing the adult thing but you know, I can only do so much and she wasn't willing to talk it out.  My whole family loved her and I was scared to bring in another friend to hang out with my family like Crystal used to do.  I didn't wanna end up disappointed again, and I'm sorry for being like that towards you Leelee, but I fuckin miss you hoe. :P  I've learned to let go of the way I was, and you are my best friend.

Leelee all the way to the left, my friend Tina, and Tina's mom

     Overall, I miss home.  I hate that I have to wait until April to see my brothers, but I'm going to try and see you guys next month.  Love you guys! xoxoxoxo